Clockwork of a Sideways Mind: Archive

Rearview Mirror

Tonight is just like every other night of the week. We have spent our time together and now you must go home. Then tell me, why does tonight feel different? Why do I feel like crying because you couldn’t stay with me? We can’t spend the night wrapped in each others arms, lulled to sleep by the sound of our steady breathing. Instead you must watch my face disappear in the rearview...

Jul 24th

Staring Across A Table

You smelled the perfume I was wearing today. You remembered that I wore that same perfume all those months ago to our first dinner. I never thought I’d be sitting here writing this now about, well you. I still find myself lost in thought sometimes about how I ended up in this place. How, without my knowing, you found your way into my heart. I look at you all the time and still am amazed that...

Jul 23rd

Deeper than the Ocean Blue

I am so happy I want to cry. Every touch, every glance, every word said makes me fall deeper and deeper.

Jun 27th

Jun 21st

Why Am I Happy?

Because I could not ask for anything better.

Jun 21st

Hands to Hold

No, my life isn’t perfect. I fight with my parents, I feel sad sometimes, and my plans don’t always work out. But you know what? I’m starting to think it’s all okay. Everything I have gone through, all I have worked for, the countless tears I have cried, and the infinite laughter than has escaped my lips, has led me up to this moment. I am happy with my life and how...

Jun 13th

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Being Hacked.

Hello Every one. This is Kelly’s boyfriend and i am here to tell you that she has totally made me extremely happy. i am so glad that i have met her. we are now going to watch a movie and i cant think of any other place id rather be then with her o the couch. did i mention she always seem to smell soooooo good. thanks henry

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May 17th

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May 15th

Peace in the Clouds

I love walking home and hearing the birds sing. I love watching the clouds, white and fluffy, floating by. I love the smell of newly cut grass. I love that excitement you get when you’ve answered a question right in school. I love being tall when you wear high heels. I love the feeling I get when he holds my hand and holds on tight. I love that look in his eyes that tells me he’s mine....

May 13th

Hello?

Is it too much to ask for a little support? I am so happy right now and you all know it, but you don’t even care. I just want you to be there for me, you know like friends do? You’ve told me your opinions, ohhhhh yes have I heard them. But you don’t know him like I do. Have a little faith. I know you’re looking out for me and I love you for it, but don’t act like you...

Apr 29th

Not An End, A Beginning

The chances of you actually reading this are extremely slim, but you know it’s here so this is what I have to say. I’m sorry. I don’t want you to be mad or upset, hurt or discouraged. This will work out, I promise you that. There will be another girl out there that will give you what you need, better than what I could give you. So as your friends said, keep your head up and put...

Apr 21st

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Apr 11th

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Battle In Itself

I hate that feeling in the pit of your stomach that something isn’t right. My heart is telling me one thing and my head is telling me another. And somewhere my life is caught in a battle between the two. I’m being torn apart when I just want to be put back together.

Apr 11th

Elation

Being told by someone that they really care about you is one of the best feelings in the world.

Mar 30th

Wishful Thinking

The other day I was talking to a friend and I told him that I wanted to go to the beach. Then I realized something. I don’t just want to go to the beach. I want to sneak out one night, so late (or early technically) that no one is on the road and the sky is dark enough to see the stars. I don’t care if it’s cold or hot, I just want to drive out there and stick my feet in the...

Mar 29th

Mar 27th

My Leave of Absense

I’ve abandon my page haven’t I? Well I will give you my apologies. I’ve missed this place actually. My place of self expression where I am free to say what I feel. Many things have happened to me in the past weeks, and now I am here to tell you all. I have met a wonderful guy, and my guilt ridden conscience and tortured heart are finally healing. He is slowly putting me back...

Mar 27th

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Feb 19th

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Skates and Quarters

Dear Friend, Things will get better, I promise. I know right now it seems like you have lost your world, but trust me you haven’t. You are young and you have your whole life ahead of you. So move on, and don’t look back. Just be happy.

Feb 17th

I Like Black and White

Sometimes I wish life was a little simpler than what it seems to be right now. I hate mixed messages and unclear lines and boundaries. Just tell me how you feel and tell me how this is going to be. I won’t wait for you.

Feb 17th